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Eastenders 12th October 2026
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00:00OK.
00:01I want you to pretend.
00:03It's blood.
00:12Ladies, come get your night out.
00:16Al, Al, please, come on.
00:26Er, is my mum about?
00:28No.
00:28Hello?
00:28Hi.
00:32There he is.
00:34I was going to pop in as soon as I heard you were back,
00:36but I thought I'd give you a bit of space.
00:39Thank you, I'm...
00:40I don't know if you've heard that I'm going to join Cindy on her honeymoon.
00:44I'll stand by my friend of his,
00:45but I'll be back in a few weeks,
00:47so I thought we could get together for a catch-up and a coffee.
00:54I don't think that's a good idea.
00:57Why?
01:00Whatever there was between us, I'm...
01:04I don't have the capacity for that right now.
01:07The capacity?
01:07Look, I need to focus on rebuilding my life and my businesses.
01:14I'm...
01:16Sorry.
01:25I didn't see you there, okay?
01:26That's what you said last time you tried to mow a kid down.
01:29I've paid for my mistake.
01:31Oh, putting it all behind you.
01:32Yeah, good luck with that.
01:34Show him.
01:37I can't wipe this away.
01:38I'll take it from someone who knows.
01:43Ian!
01:48Did you hear about him kicking off in a big last night?
01:50What?
01:52In the state of you, how many do you have?
01:54Well, you've got to celebrate your week, isn't it?
01:55What, by getting completely and utterly trollied?
01:57Er, part of a kettle much?
01:59It was a small night, eh?
02:00You sound like Mum.
02:02Apparently she gave him an earful.
02:04Well, he's giving him an open goal, isn't he?
02:05Out in the last two nights on the bounce.
02:07Yeah, well, he actually left just after you.
02:11And then I checked in with him later.
02:13Apparently Mum wanted to talk about this Jess situation.
02:16She's taking him off at the finder.
02:17You look absolutely hanging, Pat.
02:19Anyone else want to chime in on how terrible I look?
02:21I literally had a few drinks to celebrate my win.
02:23Oh, great.
02:24Well, now you've got that off your plate,
02:25you can pull your finger out with a contract.
02:27Yeah, that's fair enough.
02:29Where is Lee?
02:30Er, I don't know.
02:35Do you want to go for a drink later?
02:36Yeah, I do actually, ooh.
02:38You all right?
02:39No, baby's just kicking me in the bladder.
02:41Right, um, message me, tell me where to meet.
02:44Yeah, will do.
02:44See you in a bit.
02:45See you later.
02:53Someone's up to no good.
02:55You said not under my roof.
02:57This ain't exactly under your roof, so...
03:00Fair.
03:02So, what are your plans for today, eh?
03:05Just sit here, get wasted on your tod?
03:09Sound like a rice sound, so.
03:12I'm meeting up with someone later, you must know.
03:15Anyone I know?
03:16Nah, never matter.
03:19Looks like I found your new hiding spot.
03:22I was just finishing walking Bud and I thought I'd chill for a bit.
03:28Taking off yesterday, early, meant that someone else had to pick up your slack.
03:32Now, out in the real world, people ain't going to stand for that.
03:36Won't happen again.
03:38I mean, if I'm given a chance.
03:44Anyway, I'm going to take him home and go for a run.
03:48Yeah, good choice.
03:53For the record, Ned, it was my idea to duck out early from work yesterday.
03:59Not his.
04:00And I'm sure you had your reasons.
04:03And I do appreciate you taking an interest in the boy.
04:06Well, he ain't exactly a boy anymore.
04:09I mean, he needs to live his own life.
04:11Oh, I've got no problem with him living his life.
04:14As long as it's the right one.
04:24Dad!
04:27So good to see you back where you belong.
04:30I'm sorry I wasn't here for you when you came home,
04:32but Jimmy was running the temperature and I didn't feel I could leave Lauren on our own with him.
04:36How are you?
04:38Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
04:41Jimmy, okay now?
04:43Much better, yeah.
04:45Lauren's staying a few more nights with her mum,
04:48so the journey doesn't set him back.
04:51Well, listen, it's you I'm worried about, though.
05:00Ian!
05:02Ian.
05:03Oh, hello, love.
05:05You're back.
05:06Right.
05:07I've got the first train back this morning.
05:09Oh, that's nice, isn't it, Ian?
05:12Er, Marie said you were looking for me.
05:15Did you need me at all?
05:17Er, no, I, um...
05:20I just popped in on my way from the, er, the chippy.
05:23I should probably go there now because I've got my, um, first probation meeting later
05:26and, er, I haven't got much time.
05:29Well, to do what?
05:30I mean, Peter's only just got here.
05:32Yeah, but I need to check everything.
05:34Well, maybe you could do it together.
05:36Oh, right, so he can keep an eye on me.
05:39Look, obviously you've told him what happened last night.
05:41He said he's got to rush back here to keep an eye on his dad because he's losing it.
05:44No, he wasn't like that.
05:45Oh, no, don't lie to me!
05:49Sorry.
06:00Look, Mummy, shall I try and walk again?
06:05Well done!
06:06But no, darling, we'd better work our way up to that, yeah?
06:10Right, let's get you home, shall we?
06:12Strap in, break off.
06:19Good job.
06:35Is it a bird?
06:36No, is it a plane?
06:38No, it's Super Baby!
06:39OK, careful, I've just fed him, he's going to be sick.
06:42Sorry, sorry.
06:43Oh, he's so cute!
06:46Oh, we're going to have to watch out, you know, with Ivy in years to come.
06:50Oh, don't worry, his dad will keep him in line.
06:53Who's his dad's man?
06:55Oh, er, I am.
06:57Luckily, he takes after his mum in the looks department.
07:00Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.
07:03Shh, shh, shh, shh!
07:30Hey. What are you listening to?
07:34You wouldn't know it. It's kind of obscure Digi-Dub 90s Identity vibes.
07:4190s? You're very well preserved, if you don't mind me saying.
07:46My dad got me into it. You could blame him.
07:48What do you mean your dad? You're moving way faster than I'm used to.
07:53Need a hand? It's not coming off very easily.
07:58Looks like you need some white spirit. Just so you know, I didn't kill anyone.
08:05Yeah, I know that.
08:10I'm kind of scum who do things like this. They're more interested in outrage than accuracy.
08:21There's another rag in the bucket.
08:31Might take a bit of elbow grease, but at least now you'll have a fighting chance.
08:39I'm Ned, by the way. Staying at number one. I'm Nicola's brother-in-law.
08:48Ian. Ian Bill.
08:53I saw the article in the Gazette this morning.
08:56It killed you here, but by accident. Was he local?
09:06Apologise if I've overstepped. It's fine. Don't have to say.
09:12Sometimes talking to a stranger helps.
09:15But then again, I suppose I would say that.
09:19I was in the army.
09:21Had a fair bit of therapy.
09:24And so I retrained and became a therapist myself.
09:28I'd like to think I've helped a few people along the way.
09:35The, uh, the kid, he's a...
09:40He's a neighbour. His name's Jordan.
09:46And will he recover?
09:49Eventually, yeah.
09:53What about you?
09:55You recover from this?
09:59Sorry, mate. I think your flies are open.
10:03Alice. This is my idiot cousin, Harry.
10:06Enjante.
10:06What are you doing?
10:07I'm sorry. Get out of here.
10:11Sorry about him.
10:13So this really is your family's place?
10:15Yeah. Yeah, I expect I'll end up running it one day.
10:18Ryder, you couldn't run a bath.
10:32Bit early for romance, innit?
10:35Only day.
10:37This is Alice.
10:39Nice to meet you, Alice.
10:41Likewise.
10:42You know, Ryder told me he was meeting someone,
10:45but he was being a bit cagey about it.
10:46So, surprised he brought you here.
10:49Oh, he wasn't going to meet me.
10:52We've just met, at the park.
10:55First movers, the barrier.
10:58Sorry, where are the ladies?
11:00Oh, they're just over there, darling.
11:06Pretty girl.
11:08No wonder you wanted to show her off.
11:10Show her off?
11:11To who?
11:12Or to whoever you thought was going to be here.
11:16Me, Harry, your dad.
11:20I don't care who you've got hanging off your arm, darling.
11:23But she seems like a nice girl, so make sure you treat her right.
11:36I just want to say, um, thanks for helping me.
11:41Really appreciate it.
11:42What do I owe you for the white spirit?
11:44Oh, behave, man.
11:46I've got you a coffee.
11:50Cheers, I'll, uh, I'll have you inside.
11:52Uh, uh, no, sit down.
11:55You've got nothing to be ashamed of.
12:03You mustn't worry so much about what other people think.
12:06The ones that matter don't think it anyway.
12:09And the ones that do will move on to hating someone else by the end of the week.
12:13Doesn't feel like that.
12:15That's because you're in the eye of the storm.
12:18You think that your life's changed forever because you nearly caused the death, but...
12:24You look around.
12:27All these people that you see,
12:29they're treading the fine line between life and death every single second of the day.
12:33The cyclist who jumps a red light, the bus driver distracted by his phone.
12:38Anyone who tries my cooking.
12:42The difference between them and you is that they never have to confront their demons because
12:49they're nearly never happened.
12:51At least not yet.
12:55I've spoken to dozens of people like you.
12:58Soldiers, mostly.
13:00Men and women trying to face the consequences of something that they've done or that was done to them.
13:10Some of them manage to move on with their lives.
13:14Some of them fall apart.
13:18Do you know what makes a difference?
13:21Talking to you?
13:23No, sadly not.
13:25I wish.
13:27No.
13:28The difference is that some of them are prepared to go back down into the dark
13:34and wade through their fear and guilt and look their demons straight in the eye.
13:44You all right?
13:46Alice is gone.
13:52Do you want to talk?
13:56Would it be easier if I kicked things off?
14:05Or would it be easier if I just said it?
14:11You're gay.
14:11Am I right?
14:22Oh, I love you.
14:27We all do.
14:27We all do.
14:33So, anyone else know?
14:36Well, I suppose there's a few dozen fellas.
14:38You've probably got a pretty good idea.
14:43But no one in the family, no.
14:48Well, you know your mum would be fine with it.
14:52Well, I could never put her in a difficult position, you know,
14:55because his dad can never know.
15:04So, this is the place?
15:09Fine. Talk me through what happened.
15:16I can't.
15:17Yeah, you can.
15:18Yeah, no.
15:18Yeah, you can.
15:18You're just choosing not to.
15:21You're looking away.
15:22Don't look away.
15:24Pick your head up.
15:25Come on, head up.
15:28Right, this is the moment right here, right now.
15:31This is the moment
15:35where you choose to be brave.
15:39So, wind it back.
15:43You, the car, the boy.
15:58I was with my mum and we got in the car and she'd been drinking so she was turning the
16:12radio on,
16:13I was turning it off, she turned the air conditioning on, I turned it off, she turned the radio on
16:18again and again and I kept turning it off but it was loud and she was distracting me.
16:38I wasn't paying attention, I wasn't paying attention and I put the car in reverse and I jolted it back
16:48and I, I thought I'd hit something but I didn't, I didn't really, I don't know what it was.
16:55I didn't pay it any attention, I just thought it was the traffic going.
17:02So we, um, drove off like normal, me and my mum, we just went home.
17:13It wasn't normal, was it?
17:17Everything changed.
17:21Everything changed forever.
17:23Course it did.
17:26And it should.
17:30You nearly took the life of a child.
17:35You suffered the anger of family, neighbours, all the terrible things that happened to you in prison.
17:42Of course you changed, how could it not change you?
17:45But has it ever occurred to you that you might have changed for the better?
17:53He eyes it well but underneath all the modern man stuff, you know, he'd not be alright with me being,
17:58well, you know.
18:00You sure about that?
18:02Because I mean, he must have had gay clients in the past.
18:05I suppose so and if he did I'm sure he listened and empathised and said all the right things but,
18:11you know, words come easy when it ain't your son.
18:16You don't think that you're just projecting this?
18:19You know, because you're, I don't know, scared or?
18:25Nah, when you grow up with someone you pick up on stuff, you know, like,
18:29like, there was this one boy on my football team, you know, I guess he was a bit different.
18:35He couldn't hide it like I do.
18:38The other boys were awful to him, like, calling him gay and queer, like, for years.
18:43And he took it and took it until eventually he just left.
18:46And then when I went and told Dad what happened, he just shrugged and said it was probably for the
18:51best.
18:52Football and gays ain't a good mix.
18:55You didn't say that.
18:57Yeah, he said a lot more about how I felt sorry for the lads, how it was a lonely road,
19:03that his life was going to be harder just because he liked boys.
19:09That's when I realised I probably shouldn't tell him I'd been hooking up with that same one going on two
19:12years.
19:20But I guess that's when I fell out of love with football.
19:24Two months later, I was done.
19:27Yeah, so I guess he was right.
19:29Football and gays ain't a good mix.
19:31Yeah.
19:32Your dad should never have said that.
19:34It's okay.
19:35Mate, it's fine.
19:36No.
19:36No, it's not okay, Ryder.
19:38You should be able to be yourself around the people who love you.
19:42Well, I've told you now, haven't I?
19:45Maybe I can be myself with you.
19:48Of course you can.
19:50So, you seeing anyone?
19:56There is this one guy I've been chatting to online.
19:59He's always wanting to go on a date.
20:01He's actually kind of relentless.
20:02Oh, not stalker vibes?
20:03No.
20:04No.
20:05No, he's sweet.
20:08He's funny.
20:09He's really into me for some reason.
20:12Because you're an amazing catch.
20:16Darling, don't let the fear of your dad knowing dictate how you live your life.
20:21If you like this guy, then call him.
20:26Like, on a phone?
20:28Yeah.
20:30How old actually are you?
20:31Of course.
20:32Jeez.
20:35Right, my arms are aching now.
20:37Now, if you, like, look up to the sky, it makes you feel like you're going higher.
20:42Careful.
20:58You don't need to say anything.
21:01It's okay.
21:03I'm glad to see you.
21:06Feels like maybe you've been avoiding us a bit.
21:13Are you okay?
21:16It's not me I'm worried about.
21:20He's getting better, aren't you, Jordan?
21:23Yeah.
21:23Stronger every day.
21:27It's good, it's...
21:31If there's anything I can do to help, I mean, pay for physio, you know, stuff like that,
21:37I'd like to, I mean it.
21:40Can you push me?
21:42Mummy doesn't push me hard enough.
21:45Well, I'm sure your mum does a very, very good job,
21:49but if you would like me to give you a push, I'd...
21:53I'd love to.
21:53Yeah.
21:54Go on, then.
21:56All right.
21:57Uh-oh.
21:58Are you ready?
21:59Higher!
22:01Up to the moon!
22:03To the moon?
22:04Well, then, what, but you're never going to come back.
22:06Ha-ha-ha!
22:12Oh!
22:13I've got to go, I've got to go.
22:14What is going on?
22:17You've asked me out for a drink and you just sat there like a couple of lemons.
22:21You're gonna have more fun passing a kidney stone.
22:23All right.
22:25I'm tired.
22:27Drink?
22:28Clearly got drinks, come on.
22:31I'll just get a fresh one for me.
22:36Why is he being weird?
22:37You had a row?
22:38No.
22:39Of course not.
22:42Okay, look, I should have told you this before,
22:46but Mum and Lee have gone to find Jess to try and work things out.
22:52So much for the whole no more secrets thing, then.
22:55Oh, what, and she's told you not to tell me?
22:57No.
22:57No, it was both of them, actually.
22:58They don't want you worrying.
23:00She's the one who's worrying because I've told her to keep her nose out.
23:02Yeah, why?
23:03She's literally just trying to make things better.
23:05No, she's trying to make it all about her, as usual.
23:10Right, well, I know she's not perfect, but I think you might be being a bit harsh.
23:15Of course you think that.
23:16You've been too close for too long. You're brainwashed.
23:20Great.
23:21So I'm some emotionally stunted mummy's boy now, am I?
23:23Yeah, that's exactly what you are.
23:27Sweet.
23:30So you're clear on the conditions of your licence?
23:34Yeah, I think so.
23:35It's important that you are, because although you're back in the community,
23:39you're still serving your sentence.
23:40You can be recalled at any time if you don't adhere.
23:44Yeah, I understand. Thank you.
23:47Formal part over.
23:48Do you mind me asking about your mental health?
23:51No, I don't mind.
23:54To be honest with you, it's not been that good.
23:56No, you don't really mean that.
23:59Mum, I do.
24:01I mean, they're probably thinking I should just tell you that I'm fine, but I'm not.
24:05No, nobody's saying that. We're just worried about you.
24:07I know you are, son.
24:11Look, it's a pressure to just jump back into your life as if nothing's happened, but
24:19so much has happened.
24:21I mean, I'm not the same man I was before I went inside and
24:25I think that's OK.
24:29And maybe, um, eventually I can, I can be better.
24:37I think. But I hope.
24:40I think that's the most honest answer I've heard all week.
24:43I'm looking forward to working with you, Ian.
24:47Mum used to say, out of all her four kids, I was the best baby.
24:52What does that mean, best baby?
24:55Er, well, I think she meant I just slept a lot.
24:59Yeah?
25:00Yeah.
25:00OK, then, best baby, can you hold this one while I go to the loo?
25:04All right.
25:06All right, Ethan.
25:07Here we go.
25:07I can put another bag.
25:08It's OK.
25:12It's OK, all right?
25:13Hey, calm down.
25:15It's OK.
25:16Hey, Ethan.
25:19You all right, Ethan?
25:20Oh, Finn, what have you done?
25:21You told him a joke?
25:22Yeah, very, very funny.
25:24Actually, do you know what?
25:24You can have a go, then.
25:26Oh, go on, then.
25:26Yeah?
25:27That's right.
25:27I'm finished.
25:28Oh, here we go.
25:29Here we go.
25:30Where is he?
25:31Hey, where is he?
25:34Oh, there we are.
25:36See?
25:36He likes me.
25:37Oh, no, you've just confused him.
25:40He ain't sure of your humour.
25:45What's put a smile on your face?
25:48Oh, just Ryder telling me about his plans for the evening.
25:52Oh, yeah?
25:53What's he up to?
25:55Nothing much.
25:57You two seem to be striking up quite the bond.
26:01Yeah, well, I think I've just got that new car smell about me.
26:05Do you know what I mean?
26:05Give him a month and he'll think I'm as boring as everyone else does.
26:10You don't need to be defensive about it.
26:12I'm just, you know, genuinely interested as to what you two talk about.
26:20Don't get up.
26:21To be continued.
26:26Ian.
26:28I just wanted to say thanks, OK?
26:30What you said earlier, it was a great help.
26:36I talked to Chelsea and Jordan and it feels like a weight's been lifted, so thank you.
26:48You are more than welcome.
26:55Ian.
27:01You know you could talk to me any time.
27:07I'd like that.
27:08My door's always open.
27:26watching out for me.
27:31But anyway...
27:33Stop.
27:38Run, run, run, run.
27:40Run.
27:41Run, run, run.
27:42Run, run, run.
27:43.
27:45I forgot.