00:00The last time I was a doctor, I done four years in ten months, it took a lot out of me and it hurt me.
00:14I'm constantly hurting my kids, constantly hurting them.
00:18I was just doing so much drugs and I just didn't care, you know, just lost the whole concept of everything.
00:25You know, I made a point to myself that I ain't going back, you know, it's about my kids.
00:34Been into the drug life, it impacted a lot.
00:39If you hungry, you gonna do what you have to do.
00:43That could be all of us.
00:45I mean, that was our life, that's all we know.
00:48My mom told us we gotta take care of all of us together because it's always gonna be us at the end of the day.
00:54I want to stick around to keep him going to that light that we know is at the end of the tunnel.
01:08I basically started from around zero again.
01:11Give these men a chance.
01:13If you don't open the door for them, they can't get nowhere.
01:17You're like...
01:18Oh my God.
01:19I know I've been trying to grab it.
01:20Not giving up.
01:21If I give up, I lose.
01:22Sorry, you know, I might well laugh.
01:23You know, since I've been home throughout this year, I've dabbled a little bit.
01:24I'm weak.
01:25It don't take much and be off to the races again.
01:26They trying to say I had something to do with a sale that went down.
01:30My third strike, I'd be taken away from my family damn near the rest of my life.
01:31By the time I come home, I'll be 40-something years old.
01:32I don't know what to do next.
01:33That's all I got to say.
01:34I don't know what to do next.
01:35I want better for me.
01:59I want better for me.
02:00I want better for my sons.
02:01And I'm going to do it.
02:03I'm not going to try, I'm going to do it.
