HOW TO OVERCOME FEAR OF FAILURE!!!

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Are you a student preparing for exams? This testimony will INSPIRE you!  Claire's academic journey serves as a poignant lesson, especially for students, about the danger of believing the lies the devil attempts to paint about the future. As you hear the testimony of this aspiring medical doctor in South Africa, learn to overcome the fear of failure by listening to the voice of God!   To freely receive prayer from Brother Chris through Zoom, simply submit your prayer request here - https://www.godsheart.tv/zoom - and the God's Heart TV Team will be in touch with you soon via email at info@godsheart.tv   ➡️ Receive Daily Encouragement on WhatsApp - https://godsheart.tv/whatsapp/ ➡️ Information about Interactive Prayer - https://godsheart.tv/interactive-prayer/ ➡️ Volunteer as a God's Heart TV Translator - https://godsheart.tv/translate/ ➡️ Share your testimony - https://godsheart.tv/testimony ➡️ Join our Live Prayer Service on the first Saturday of every month - https://www.youtube.com/godshearttv/live

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00:00slowly but surely i started preparing myself for failure which is honestly a terrible thing to do

00:07sometimes you just get so consumed by negativity and then this false perception of hopelessness

00:18that you just like you know what okay maybe there is no hope for me and you actually start believing

00:26this by the authority in the name of jesus christ receive your freedom receive your healing

00:42receive your breakthrough receive restoration receive it receive it receive it receive it

00:52receive it today greetings to everyone my name is claire and i'm from south africa

01:00so my problem started a little um into 2023 when i was in grade 11

01:10um i had this like inexplicable academic decline

01:15and it just didn't make sense to me no matter how much hard work i put in um the hours i would

01:24spend on my work when i'd get into tests or exams nothing would add up because i'd get blank black

01:34outs or i'd get so panic stricken and i get anxiety i get these hand trimmers and i wouldn't be able to

01:42write and i mean you walk in with so much confidence and then you just stuck and you don't even know

01:51how to even start on the first question because in south africa grade 11 is a very crucial year

01:58because um at the end of the year you use those results so far for universities so that was very

02:04demotivating for me because i knew this year was like my make or break i had to i had a goal in mind

02:14and i for the longest time i've always wanted to pursue medicine after high school so now with that

02:22at the back of my mind and the results i was producing i was like no there is no way certainly no

02:30way that i could get to my goal or to my dream at that rate because as you know it's a very

02:37competitive field extremely competitive so i was like you know what um there's no hope for me so

02:44slowly but surely i started preparing myself for failure which is honestly a terrible thing to do

02:52but yeah sometimes um you just get so consumed by negativity and then this false perception of

03:05hopelessness that you just like you know what okay maybe there is no hope for me and you actually start

03:13believing this what was it like you know having this fear of failure you know what was it like

03:21having to deal with the anxiety how were your grades um did you still prepare before you go to

03:29examinations or your tests you know how did how was that experience if you can share that the glory of

03:35god it was honestly awful it it was so awful yes i did still prepare but i was so over consumed by

03:45negativity anxiety and as i said this false perception of hopelessness i am not even my own

03:55creator but i was like no i see that there is no hope for me in the future no matter how much work i put

04:02in no matter how many different study methods i'd use um and the funny thing is i'd study at home

04:11and everything would be going so well i'd walk in so confidently but as soon as i just walked into

04:17that exam room everything just changed as i said the anxiety the depression the depression um sometimes i'd

04:28even get like all these negative thoughts flooding my mind before i even get the paper in front of me

04:37like just simply stepping into the exam room and then i'm getting tremors and literally cannot write

04:44so i'm sitting there and i'm waiting for my hands to stop tremoring so i can actually like process what's

04:50in front of me and actually start you know answering questions it was it was terrible

04:55honestly and then um just so happened in 2024 now um the same problem pursuit persisted and i was in

05:07grade 12 now and it just so happened that one sunday of the church my mom was talking to one of her

05:13friends and she was like oh um why don't you join her god's heart cv services one of the saturdays

05:21and you know just join one of those because she had been joining them and then my mom and i um

05:29together with the rest of our family we joined for the very first time in may of 2024 yeah so to be

05:38honest i walked in there and um sorry i joined the head life service and i was like you know

05:43today is my testimony right i i will receive you know and then i see oh no um everyone it's appeared

05:57now that everyone is manifesting and everything and i'm like i feel nothing uh is there something

06:05wrong with me what's going on but regardless i kept on joining each month uh with my mom and my family

06:12because i absolutely loved listening to the word every week um every month sorry because i would

06:21always feel that there was something very practical that spoke to me so because of that and obviously um

06:30how spiritually connected i felt during the prayer sessions i kept on joining and i was like you know

06:36um if whether i'm having an actual physical manifestation or not i i believe and i feel like

06:45this is helping me a lot it's bringing me at ease so i will keep on joining i enjoy joining so i carried

06:53on joining you know it was spiritually fulfilling whether or not i had a physical testimony or not

06:58and so i carried on and slowly but surely i was like whoa because i used to break out in hives

07:08at random all over my skin and then i realized wait i haven't complained to my mother that i broke out in

07:17hives in a week what and then i went to tell my mother this and she's like yeah and then slowly but

07:25slowly um the the tremors that i'd get as i'm writing or like those negative thoughts that just flood my

07:35mind and i'd be like i can't control them all of that also just just started like falling away if that

07:42makes sense yeah it just all just started falling away bit by bit and then i'd be like great i don't

07:50experience this anymore and i started feeling much lighter and then um just the end of may um

08:00end of april end of may that's the time that you usually apply for universities now so i was like wow

08:10i i was feeling lighter yes but i still didn't have the hope that i could pursue what i wanted to

08:20pursue i don't think i had what it takes because still my grades weren't on par yet i was still

08:26you know finding my way so i started looking at alternatives so literally anything not that i

08:36necessarily had an interest in but anything that i thought i could get by with um i just applied for

08:43in university and i literally applied to almost every single institution in this country because

08:50i was like i'm not gonna get a spot i'm literally gonna take whatever i get there are various options

08:58but i honestly didn't want to be sitting at home after my matric year i really did want to progress

09:05um for my studies further at the back of my mind i still had my dream of you know what medicine has

09:13been my lifelong dream but i didn't want to apply for it i was like no that makes no sense i my report

09:20is terrible why would i do that but my mom luckily she encouraged me and she's like you know what

09:27okay just give it a shot because whether or not it's meant for you that's for god to decide and i did

09:35i as i said i applied everywhere and then yeah i skipped to august september october november december

09:44that was when we had like our two major um periods of exams so as i said then i started feeling

09:53more lighter more confident i didn't experience any of these um um anxiety or exam hysteria during my

10:04exam it was completely gone these negative thoughts i wouldn't get anything i walk in confident and i

10:11would walk out and be like you know what god you were with me i believe you're with me when i was

10:16studying i know you were with me in this exam room now we'll walk out and prepare for my next exam and

10:23just leave it at that i don't know what to expect but i was just like i'm just gonna have faith

10:28i did my part let god do the rest so exams came out um mid-jan this year and i remember it was the night

10:38before exam but the exam was also actually supposed to come out and what happens in south africa is if

10:45you get distinctions it gets published in the newspaper at midnight and you can go to your nearest

10:51garage and find those results and then obviously the following day midday that's when you actually

10:58get your full statement with the actual marks and stuff so i remember going to bed that night because

11:05i was so so stressed and worried because i didn't know what to expect and as i said for the longest time

11:12i had been preparing myself for failure and though i started um deterring from that part

11:18i still had that bit of doubt at the back of my head so i was like let me just go to bed so i can

11:26completely forget about it and it just so happened that one of my friends had bought the newspaper

11:31and she sent a picture of it on our group chat so i'm like oh no should i look should i not

11:40i don't want to ruin my night right so i don't want to ruin my night right so i was like okay let me just

11:45look so i looked for my exam number and initially um i i think because i was very nervous i looked at

11:56the wrong exam number and then i was like oh no because i only saw two distinctions i did eight

12:02subjects and yet again i didn't know what to expect but i was like certainly i'm not going to

12:10get to my dream now you know and then my siblings heard me and they're like no she must have gotten

12:16the results right so they came rushing into my room and um they grabbed my phone and they started um

12:23cross-checking um cross-referencing to see my exam number on that uh newspaper and then they started

12:31calling out all the subjects that they saw um in the newspaper they called out each subject and then

12:37i'm counting and i'm like no you called out eight subjects there's no way please check that number

12:45again i was like check that number again there is no way i got distinctions for all my subjects there

12:50no and then my siblings were like no this is it and i felt like my world like stopped right there

13:00because i i don't know how to explain it i was so overwhelmed i felt like i was dreaming i was like

13:07me what no way ah no i didn't believe it so as i said earlier i was honestly ready to settle for

13:18anything i got so i hence i had applied to literally every single institution in this country

13:25and then um so a little later down that week um of results publications was when you'd get your

13:34responses from universities and uh all these universities um that i was looking to um for

13:42medicine were really quiet so i was like oof what's this supposed to mean and then i eventually got my

13:51first response three days later from one of the institutions and then just one by one i kept on

14:00getting acceptance letters for medicine for almost literally every institution i had applied to

14:06so i was like hold on not only do i get to study what i had been intending to what i aspired to

14:15but i get to choose which institution i want to go to and honestly it was uh it was mind-blowing

14:23and on top of that um okay so i got to university and whatever but still an issue that also had been

14:32pending from 2024 was finances i mean six years a course like this it's quite costly especially since

14:42i'm living six hours away from home accommodation tuition fees and everything else that goes in

14:48between it's quite costly and um my family is quite a big family and although my parents are like you

14:55know what we're working hard for you you don't have to worry about finances um at the back of my mind

15:01i always think you know um i'm one of four siblings my parents are supporting two families

15:09isn't it selfish of me to be like yo i went to study this for six years

15:14i was like how how is that gonna happen and then literally oh my gosh literally um two weeks

15:27after i'd come to university i'd moved in and everything it just so happened that two people

15:33from my church approached my parents and they were like no we put your daughter's name forward for a

15:42bursary just make sure that she sends through all her details and they will consider whether

15:48um they think she's eligible for this bursary and i sent my details through and i was like oh my god

15:55please make this happen if it doesn't it doesn't you know um and literally less than a week later

16:02i get an acceptance letter from this um institution saying that they would cover my studies

16:09completely for the entire year accommodation everything included and that was another blessing

16:18huge honestly i just want to say whether it takes a day a week a year or years god will always

16:30take you exactly to where he wants you to be no matter how unsure you are about a dream or a vision he

16:38has planted it will come to fruition or fruition eventually you just need to have faith in that

16:48and i feel like it's a self-fulfilling prophecy because my second name is no cotenda and that means

16:55with faith so honestly just walk by faith not by sight and give it all to god don't lose hope it's cliche

17:05yes but honestly don't lose hope

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