00:00With my songwriting in general, I like to talk about these heavier topics to me, but
00:06I'm not a serious person.
00:09It's not in my personality to be really, really, really intense about these things.
00:15So I think that comes through in the way that I write.
00:18Just allowing myself to be silly and go there is really important to me.
00:22It's how I express myself.
00:30I wrote the song back in 2023.
00:33I think I was like a year and a half into tour, and I'd done like 11 tours.
00:37So it was crazy.
00:38Crazy times.
00:39Essentially, I was like very ungrounded, and I was having kind of like life mood swings,
00:46and everything was just incredibly chaotic.
00:49That's kind of the basis of this whole song.
01:00I'm so quick when I switch it up for the mellow.
01:04Yellow and purple are complementary colors.
01:06They're quite literally opposite of each other, which was kind of just a commentary on how
01:11quickly I was cycling through feelings and moods and people and versions of myself.
01:18In my music, I kind of explore this idea of duality a lot, and two things can be true
01:24simultaneously within ourselves.
01:28The complexity of emotions and of people and of situations is, at the end of the day, what
01:34makes life exciting and fun and crazy and messy.
01:38I think I just welcome it all.
01:47I was on tour.
01:48I was in a hotel every day.
01:51We were like an eight-person team, and six of us were dudes, and two of us were girls.
01:56So I was truly just with my boys all the time.
01:59Lovely boys.
02:00Loved them so much.
02:01But it was me and the boys.
02:09When it's time to move my hips from left to right, I listen to Paul Simon and Michael
02:14MacDonald, the Doobie Brothers, and Evelyn Champagne-Kang.
02:19Sometimes you just need to be all consumed by positive energy, and for me, those artists
02:26all kind of have that within their music, and it's something that I love, and I love
02:31to kind of recreate in my music, too.
02:37The tide is low.
02:38The moon is bright.
02:39I'm having a great time.
02:41I'm moving my hips from left to right.
02:43I'm dancing.
02:44I'm vibing.
02:45I think I was trying to paint the picture of I'm having this great time, and then I
02:47see something on my phone, and then all of a sudden, I'm in this anxious spiral again.
02:56Like Cinderella, making babies all the company's time, ooh.
03:04Being in this industry, there's moments of being so glorified, but at the end of the
03:09day, it's really hard, dirty, nasty work, 95% of the time.
03:15The Cinderella thing is kind of feeling like this princess at 5% of my life, and then the
03:24other 95% is having to pump out children, being my songs, and then all that being funded
03:31by a label.
03:32It's a very strange existence.
03:44In this time of my life, I felt like I kind of always needed one person that was my best
03:49friend that could hold me up.
03:52Time is a word that people have used to mean best friend, or partner, or just like buddy.
04:00But what I go on to explain later in the song is that I found that I had to do it for myself.
04:22When you're in that mindset of feeling really bad about yourself and feeling insecure, my
04:31tendency is that I want to run away, or I want to use some sort of vice to get myself
04:37out of it instead of facing it head on.
04:40Me buying the boat to the private island would literally be me running away and being by
04:45myself.
04:46Sometimes when somebody buys a boat, you're like, all right, are you having a midlife
04:49crisis or something?
04:52What are you running from, queen?
05:15This is the fairy godmother moment of the song where it's like, I see the beam of light
05:21and the alternate version of myself is coming down and is like, hey, you're chill, dude.
05:29Everything's fine.
05:30You're going through all this stuff and you're doing a good job.
05:34When I wrote this song, I did not have that in me.
05:36I feel like I have manifested that through writing this song and I've kind of been able
05:42to do that for myself more and more.
05:44It was almost like setting an intention.
05:46I always imagined that fairy godmother voice as Michael McDonald's voice, wanting him to
05:52sing it.
05:53And who knows?
05:54Maybe it'll happen.
05:55Yeah.
05:56It was always Michael coming down, but me as Michael.
06:02I never know if anything's a hit.
06:03I mean, people really like it, which is awesome, but I tend to like to be blissfully ignorant
06:10and kind of hands off and in the clouds when it comes to that type of stuff because you
06:14can get really in the weeds emotionally if you pay too much attention.
06:18I kind of just like to be living my life and not caring about how my music is being received
06:24and perceived by the world.
06:25And I think what helps with that is that I really am proud of my songs.
06:29I really like them.
06:30If I like it, then no one can hurt me.
